ohhhh Wal-Mart

Since I live in a small town im used to seeing people I know every where I go. So that means I have to look decent so people don't think I'm a total slob outside of school. But occasionally I go to Wal-Mart looking like I have just walked through a dessert for fourty days and I was lucky enough to look like that last night. I told myself: "Come on Caryn, like anyone is going to be at Wal-Mart at nine at night, some people have lives". Not that I don't have a life, I was in need of "Ladies things" *clears throat* anyways, I went to Wal-Mart looking like crap basically. The coast was clear as I was walking down the isle but then all of a sudden a crowd of collage guys walk towards me!! I of course panic and walk to the nearest isle I could find, with my luck I went into the BIG BRA section. Dear Lord, how embarrassing right??? Not even close, when I reached my destination to the "Ladies department" I grabbed my stuff and hurried out of there amd ran into my Ex- boyfriend!!!!! Of course I gave him the cold shoulder but still, my goodness... You gotta love Wally World.

Ohhh Wal-Mart

So since I live in a small town I see almost every person when I go out running errands of whatever. Im used to getting looks that say "Dang she looks like crap" and I admit it, I do sometimes look like I have just got done walking in the dessert for fourty days. And you know what? I usually don't care, but last night I really should have because as I was standing in the department for women getting "Ladies items" and bunch of collage guys walked past and looked straight at me. You may not think that this is that bad but thats not even the worst part. As I hurried out of the department they were coming my way again so I found the nearest department to avoid them which I soon found out was the BIG BRA section. Oh... geez. Which they then walked past me again. I was so embarrassed. So I thought that it couldn't get any worse than this, so when I went to the check-out I found that my ex-boyfriend was standing in line right in front of me. So with a box of tampons in hand I waited in line with the guy who broke my heart and who was trying to make small talk with me. Ohhh man you gotta love Wally World.

The World, my Butt, and other huge problems...

I have noticed that I am a complainer. I have my days where I just talk non-stop about how everything is just so bad, and how he said this and she did that. I am the world's biggest complainer!! Today I decided to complain about dinner, which was a very bad idea. You see I didn't know my mom had a bad day today so off my mouth went when I received my Hot Pocket for dinner. I complained about how I will die of a Hot Pocket over dose if i don't get a home cooked meal soon, and how I know that there are starving children in Africa so send them my pocket of cheese and ham! Or how my butt is getting big with all of this frozen already cooked meals. Ohhh, how my mother went off like a fire cracker! About how i need to appreciate the food she buys and how she doesn't have time to cook anymore. And I felt bad for opening my mouth. I felt so bad that I didn't open my mouth at all except only to eat that dang Hot Pocket. =S :/ :(

Grapesof Wrath....is great!!

So my English teacher is having us read "The Grapes of Wrath" which, i'm not going to lie I thought would be a very boring book. I mean what are the grapes of wrath anyway? The title just makes me yawn and confused, but hey let me tell you it's like a really great book! I just love the imagery that the author paints, he takes every little detail and explains it in his own way. It may sound like i'm babbling on about some book about grapes but it really is a wonderful book. Not to mention it's a classic and it's on the AP reading list, it's like im mult-accompleshing by reading just one book. This is just great, and it taught me a lesson to really not judge a book by it's cover because thats exactly what I did. Wow I really need to stop doing that.

Only child...Yay??

So, when my sisters went to collage I thiought that it woud be just excellent! And don't get me wrong it totally was I mean I had the bathroom to myself, never had to share anything anymore, and I always have the attention on me! It was great! But now that everything is settled down I really do miss those two :(. Don't get me wrong me and my mom have a blast together but being an only child just is not the funest thing in the world. You get frozen dinners or take out almost every night. You have no one to yell at for stealing your stuff, no one to vent to when your day was bad. No one to just laugh at inside jokes or share how you feel about life, guys, and "girl problem". Sure me and my mom are like really close but it's just not the same you know? I will see them both over spring break but I just wish it were sooner!!! :(

I finally quit my job...HOORAH!!

I have finally quit my job at Sonic!!! Im sure you have read the blog that I wrote on how I need money bleh bleh bleh.. so I spend what seems countless hours at this fast food place where people are mean and my manager is...well... mean. So I straight up quit my job this morning and I couldn't be more happier. I started job hunting though today and I found that alot of people are hiring, so.... I hope I can have a job by the end of this month. Man, I never knew how important jobs were until I actully quit mine. I hope this all works out because I really do need cash $$$!!!

I think when God created men she was just kidding...

So I have a boyfriend now, suprise suprise!!! But the thing is, he doesn't ever want to spend the money for gas to come see me. He has me drive a half hour to go see him, which is kinda alot of money. I guess this is a good thing because I get to see him but it's also bad because I'm the one who has to drive to go see him!! Whenever I ask him about it he always says "Well I don't have the money to drive there" and he thinks I do?? But hes a great boyfriend and I don't want to start a fight over something as small as this so I just leave it alone.... Should I? Oh geez the things I do for him... haha....?

Changes

Okay, so you've clicked on my blog being kind of curious, maybe even scared. By looking at this title you might be thinking oh, I hope she doesn't talk about "Changes in the body" or "Becoming a Women". Or maybe you didn't think that and Im just talking like a crazy women. Either way you clicked on this blog. So read it. Face the facts people! Everyone changes their mind, for better or for worse it happens. People change everyday, it's quite scary if you ask me! You could be best friends with somone for twenty years and the next thing you know, they steal your cat, or your boyfriend/ girlfriend!!! Whats with this?? Well I would like to have some scientific answer that confuses you and makes you hate this blog but I don't. What Im going to say is that I hate change, everything about it, but I learned to cope with it because if I didn't I would be like one of those people who still thinks Abraham Lincoln is still president. Or that the televsion doesn't exist!! If I didn't except the fact that my parents got devorced who knows what I would've done? Change happens, sometimes for the good and sometimes it just plain sucks. But we have to get on with it and accept that things will happen changes will be made. Man, it feels good to ge that off my chest!

Stand up

I have noticed that alot of the time I never stand up for myself. I let people push me around, but I never really say anything about it. I don't know how many times I hear negitive things said about me in a day. I don't know what I do to have these things said about me I guess some people just don't know how to chill. I do my best to get along with everyone, and you probably thinking that every person has to go through this. But really do we have to? I mean I consider the word 'hate' to be a very strong word when you use it against someone. I have atleast heard it about me ten times a week. I just kind of laugh and walk away preteding it doesn't bother me but when I think about it it does. When your in highschool alot of thiings can go wrong, people judge, hate, gossip, and just be plain mean. So does that mean the person being bullied has to take it? I never thought so, but I don't do anything about it?? Why?

Valentines day....obviously

So, it's that time again!!! Valentines day. Usually on Valentines day I would be sitting at home watching the Notebook or P.S. I love you eating those different flavored chocolets and just loving life but this year is different this year I have to work!!!! Wow!! Im so psyched!! I just love car hopping to couples who want the new Sweet Heart milkshake and I love it when people are cheap and don't give me tips!! It's just so great. And the most ironic thing about this is that I actually have a special someone to spend time with on this special day and do I ge to see him? NO! I get to see lovers at Sonic you know this is just great. Just fantastic. I better get a Valentine gift from someone for this.

The Lovely Bones... REALLY MADE ME MAD!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.

So the other day I went with a friend to go see the movie "The Lovely Bones" and I was soooo excited, I am a book worm so it's only obvious I read the book before I saw the movie. And the book was great! Like always the book is better than the movie, but really I didn't care for the movie at all! I guess it really made me think about how many sick people like Mr. Harvy there are in the world. Mr. Harvy by the way is the weirdo killer. Watching the movie just sort of opened my eyes to how trustful I am of people. And there is a really good chance that something would happen to me if I didn't change that. I know what your thinking: "wow, this girl is weird, who would be so trustful of other people, strangers, weirdos?" Well you see, don't judge to quickly now, gee I felt your harsh words through the computer, calm down! I live in a small town, like all of you do who are reading this. We know everyone, yes there are some creepers in LJ but if your like me you just laugh and move on. But think about it when we go off to collages that are in Denver, or Colorado Springs, or out of state how will you react to the people there? Okay, so it's the first day of class for you in collage and your desperatly trying to find your class, your sprinting around like a rabbit on drugs. And the a nice guy stops you and asks if you need help. And your thinking, :"He is a hunk"!!! and of course you say yes! But you totally don't know him. He might be a nice guy or a serial killer or rapist. How are you supposed to know? As girls we need to not be so trusting. I know I don't. And don't think, "well I'll know if the guy is a creep or not, Caryn is a total freak for thinking I don't". But seriously do you really know that you will know if this guy is cool or not? Answer is: YOU DON'T!!!!

Fowler Formal, Formal Fowler, eh, whatevs...

So, I am going to the Fowler Formal this weekend, and well im not going to lie OH MY GOSH IM SOOOO NERVOUS! It's with this guy I met about three months ago at the Student Council retreat. Hes really cool and everything but I haven't ever been to another school's formal, better yet, to another school's dance!!! It's not that Im nervous to go with him and all that it's just that I know people will totally be wird about me at their dance. Already he told me that some girls at his school are talking about me, ughh. Girls can be so mean!!! I guess I'm just really anxious about it. I will try and ignore them I guess and just have fun? On the bright side I have this really cute dress to wear, ha ha. (sigh) I really hope that all of this is worth it. Because I really wouldn't like writing a blog that says how terrible of a time I had at the formal. And I highly doubt you will want to read it. ha ha.... ohhh man.

WHEN THE SIBLINGS GO AWAY SO DOES THE HOME COOKD MEALS

So, about two years ago when my oldest sister Audrey went away for collage I was bummed I knew I would miss her so much. So as another year went by my other sister Rachel went to collage and I had a break down. You see we are really close and it felt like half of me was missing. But I finally got over it and me and my mom are doing just fine. Except...I noticed that when both my sisters were gone my mom and I just don't cook that often. It's really hard to cook for two when you have been cooking for three or four for basically your whole life! One night me and my mom made cheese potatoes with meatloaf and to die for spagetti squash. And I mean this was a big thing because I had been eating Hot Pockets for about a week by then. So anyways, by the time the meal was ready I just couldn't wait to eat "real food". I filled my plate like a fat man at the Country Buffet and ate that food like a crazy women. By the time I was done I was soo full of meatloaf, potates, and spagetti squash, that I didn't want to look at food again. Unfourtunatly, we, like I said, were so used to cooking for three or four people that there was enough food left over to feed the neighborhood! So, that week I had leftovers. It was a bad experience, we eat out more or we just stick to Totino's pizza or Hot Pockets. Yay for frozen, already cooked, food items.