I think when God created men she was just kidding...

So I have a boyfriend now, suprise suprise!!! But the thing is, he doesn't ever want to spend the money for gas to come see me. He has me drive a half hour to go see him, which is kinda alot of money. I guess this is a good thing because I get to see him but it's also bad because I'm the one who has to drive to go see him!! Whenever I ask him about it he always says "Well I don't have the money to drive there" and he thinks I do?? But hes a great boyfriend and I don't want to start a fight over something as small as this so I just leave it alone.... Should I? Oh geez the things I do for him... haha....?

Changes

Okay, so you've clicked on my blog being kind of curious, maybe even scared. By looking at this title you might be thinking oh, I hope she doesn't talk about "Changes in the body" or "Becoming a Women". Or maybe you didn't think that and Im just talking like a crazy women. Either way you clicked on this blog. So read it. Face the facts people! Everyone changes their mind, for better or for worse it happens. People change everyday, it's quite scary if you ask me! You could be best friends with somone for twenty years and the next thing you know, they steal your cat, or your boyfriend/ girlfriend!!! Whats with this?? Well I would like to have some scientific answer that confuses you and makes you hate this blog but I don't. What Im going to say is that I hate change, everything about it, but I learned to cope with it because if I didn't I would be like one of those people who still thinks Abraham Lincoln is still president. Or that the televsion doesn't exist!! If I didn't except the fact that my parents got devorced who knows what I would've done? Change happens, sometimes for the good and sometimes it just plain sucks. But we have to get on with it and accept that things will happen changes will be made. Man, it feels good to ge that off my chest!

Stand up

I have noticed that alot of the time I never stand up for myself. I let people push me around, but I never really say anything about it. I don't know how many times I hear negitive things said about me in a day. I don't know what I do to have these things said about me I guess some people just don't know how to chill. I do my best to get along with everyone, and you probably thinking that every person has to go through this. But really do we have to? I mean I consider the word 'hate' to be a very strong word when you use it against someone. I have atleast heard it about me ten times a week. I just kind of laugh and walk away preteding it doesn't bother me but when I think about it it does. When your in highschool alot of thiings can go wrong, people judge, hate, gossip, and just be plain mean. So does that mean the person being bullied has to take it? I never thought so, but I don't do anything about it?? Why?

Valentines day....obviously

So, it's that time again!!! Valentines day. Usually on Valentines day I would be sitting at home watching the Notebook or P.S. I love you eating those different flavored chocolets and just loving life but this year is different this year I have to work!!!! Wow!! Im so psyched!! I just love car hopping to couples who want the new Sweet Heart milkshake and I love it when people are cheap and don't give me tips!! It's just so great. And the most ironic thing about this is that I actually have a special someone to spend time with on this special day and do I ge to see him? NO! I get to see lovers at Sonic you know this is just great. Just fantastic. I better get a Valentine gift from someone for this.

The Lovely Bones... REALLY MADE ME MAD!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.

So the other day I went with a friend to go see the movie "The Lovely Bones" and I was soooo excited, I am a book worm so it's only obvious I read the book before I saw the movie. And the book was great! Like always the book is better than the movie, but really I didn't care for the movie at all! I guess it really made me think about how many sick people like Mr. Harvy there are in the world. Mr. Harvy by the way is the weirdo killer. Watching the movie just sort of opened my eyes to how trustful I am of people. And there is a really good chance that something would happen to me if I didn't change that. I know what your thinking: "wow, this girl is weird, who would be so trustful of other people, strangers, weirdos?" Well you see, don't judge to quickly now, gee I felt your harsh words through the computer, calm down! I live in a small town, like all of you do who are reading this. We know everyone, yes there are some creepers in LJ but if your like me you just laugh and move on. But think about it when we go off to collages that are in Denver, or Colorado Springs, or out of state how will you react to the people there? Okay, so it's the first day of class for you in collage and your desperatly trying to find your class, your sprinting around like a rabbit on drugs. And the a nice guy stops you and asks if you need help. And your thinking, :"He is a hunk"!!! and of course you say yes! But you totally don't know him. He might be a nice guy or a serial killer or rapist. How are you supposed to know? As girls we need to not be so trusting. I know I don't. And don't think, "well I'll know if the guy is a creep or not, Caryn is a total freak for thinking I don't". But seriously do you really know that you will know if this guy is cool or not? Answer is: YOU DON'T!!!!

Fowler Formal, Formal Fowler, eh, whatevs...

So, I am going to the Fowler Formal this weekend, and well im not going to lie OH MY GOSH IM SOOOO NERVOUS! It's with this guy I met about three months ago at the Student Council retreat. Hes really cool and everything but I haven't ever been to another school's formal, better yet, to another school's dance!!! It's not that Im nervous to go with him and all that it's just that I know people will totally be wird about me at their dance. Already he told me that some girls at his school are talking about me, ughh. Girls can be so mean!!! I guess I'm just really anxious about it. I will try and ignore them I guess and just have fun? On the bright side I have this really cute dress to wear, ha ha. (sigh) I really hope that all of this is worth it. Because I really wouldn't like writing a blog that says how terrible of a time I had at the formal. And I highly doubt you will want to read it. ha ha.... ohhh man.

WHEN THE SIBLINGS GO AWAY SO DOES THE HOME COOKD MEALS

So, about two years ago when my oldest sister Audrey went away for collage I was bummed I knew I would miss her so much. So as another year went by my other sister Rachel went to collage and I had a break down. You see we are really close and it felt like half of me was missing. But I finally got over it and me and my mom are doing just fine. Except...I noticed that when both my sisters were gone my mom and I just don't cook that often. It's really hard to cook for two when you have been cooking for three or four for basically your whole life! One night me and my mom made cheese potatoes with meatloaf and to die for spagetti squash. And I mean this was a big thing because I had been eating Hot Pockets for about a week by then. So anyways, by the time the meal was ready I just couldn't wait to eat "real food". I filled my plate like a fat man at the Country Buffet and ate that food like a crazy women. By the time I was done I was soo full of meatloaf, potates, and spagetti squash, that I didn't want to look at food again. Unfourtunatly, we, like I said, were so used to cooking for three or four people that there was enough food left over to feed the neighborhood! So, that week I had leftovers. It was a bad experience, we eat out more or we just stick to Totino's pizza or Hot Pockets. Yay for frozen, already cooked, food items.